Saturday, April 10, 2010

Next milestone of my life

It has been more than a year since my last update. Am I confused with what happened in life, or just simply lazy?

When I look back, besides those inevitable changes in life, my appetite for worldly material has subdued. I thought it was just transitional at first but the feeling persisted. I have waited long enough hence drawing a conclusion, reluctantly though, it's time for me to call it a "day".

Perhaps, I am influenced by the higher frequency of natural disasters in the globe; or ageing has catching up with me more vividly! I see things very differently from both physical and spiritual perspectives. My priority in life has swifted, what was important to me before has lost its merit, and what I have ignored deliberately its significant seems to catch my full attention gradually.

I know physical life is mortal not only from today, but I chose to ignore it and be blinded with chasing the "Malaysian dreams", the so called 5Cs. I have attained what I want sometime ago, but my greed tempted me to have insatiable upgrades. It is just like the bottomless blackhole, it sucks whatever come close and the satisfaction disappears in no time. The impact is I am slaved to the material world and blinded by the vainglory.

Do I want to repeat these for the rest of my life? I am bemused and questioning myself.

My duty as a son, I am fulfiling and able to continue to fulfill.

My duty as a husband and father, I am providing and able to continue to provide up to my children's independency.

Although I have scarce resources, I guess I could make ends meet with living a thrifty life.

Enough is enough, I murmured and trying my very best to convince myself that this is the right direction to go.

Work with God instead of work for man, I concluded.